the man you love is no longer making you happy, and you are no longer making them happy.
And all you feel is a very deep teary sadness, and that you don't want to make them any sadder than they already are. Because you have listened to all the awful things that were done to him and held him when he cried away some of the pain and hurt, but only some. Things that were done, which appall you to the point where you'd like to visit those people, and let them know the terrible damage they did to another human being.
When you know how it feels to be abandoned because that's what happened to you throughout your childhood into adolesence, as was the same for him.
You know that you love him and want to protect him and want him to fully understand that he is a good man, not just think he may be one.
That like him you have been searching all those lonely years for a companion, a lover and a best friend.
That you can see, given the chance, you could both enjoy friendship and laughter and love and closeness with each other?
That you feel leaving him would be just like abandoning a child, yet all you mostly feel is sadness. That you feel wary of what will be said or done next, and weary too.
No comments:
Post a Comment